I'm tired of naming posts. D:
In the Japan of my dreams it was always raining. I don't know why, the rain just felt cozy and beautiful and mysterious. And that was what Japan was to me. Today I had my rainy Japan. I took a walk today up the road above my house and off of it through some rice fields. I also stopped by a shrine I hadn't yet seen before. Man, it is so pretty here. ^ ^
I'm trying to do my best and be productive even though I feel like doing nothing but sleeping. I am trying to take despair, and find the light in the darkness. But it is hard, and I am being bad. I am hoping to write a little tonight, but I don't know.
I am supposed to go to church tomorrow, but for some reason I am hesitating. I don't want to go by myself for some reason. Usually I am really good with going places by myself! But for some reason my resolve is wavering lately.
Aside: I'm watching TV and for some reason this guy was escorted out onto stage by two black women, while the Moulin Rouge "Lady Marmalade" played. It was weird. Oh, and now the girls are bringing out curry as the guy's omiyage, or, can't remember the word... what you give to people after you go on a trip.
Anyway, one of the reasons I don't want to go is because I am busy the next two Sundays...
Oh, now that dude snapped his fingers and said "funky girl again" and they now have come out with golf clubs for each band member of Arashi. Uh... >.>
So anyway, I am busy the next two Sundays. Next Sunday I am going on a trip with my school. Not sure exactly to where or what I will be doing, because I was too lazy to translate completely. And then the next Sunday, I am going to Miyagi prefecture to help clean people's houses that were affected by the earthquake/tsunami. I mean, it is not as if I will go every Sunday anyway, especially if I have something I have been invited too, but I just feel weird going one Sunday and then not until three weeks later.
Today, before I went out for dinner, I got caught up in a TV show about the tsunami. You know that famous picture of the girl crying by herself? This one?
This picture communicated so much sadness and grief and despair to me, I couldn't forget it. According to the show, the true story behind this picture is that this girl had just been let back in to her town for one hour, and she was desperately searching for her dog, who had been her best friend since she was in high school. After the quake hit she went to the store, and her dog, "Mai", tried to stop her, but she yelled at her, and told her to wait. When the tsunami came, she tried to go get her, but was stopped. So when she finally was able to go back, she couldn't find her, and she though she had died. But the awesome thing is, she finally did find her though! It was kind of like a Hachiko story. The dog waited, not even moving to eat. She would go up to young girls, until one day she found her owner! Such a great story out of all of that misery.
Okay... now I am a little pissed. >.> The story seems to be a bit different than what was on TV. I mean I guess it is the same enough, but the girl had 13 dogs and didn't live alone like they made it seem -_-;; Although you can't trust an online article either.
Today I went for sushi at a place I have been a few times. I wanted to get out. I was really lonely today but I didn't want to be with anyone in particular. It is times like these I wish they had late night cafes around here. I wanted to write a bit too where there was energy. But everything closes so early around here, so it is either go to the store and wander around, or go to kaiten zushi. I picked the latter.
When I was at the sushi place last time with my friend, two girls said in unison (about us) "kawaii!!" which means "cute". Now I like attention, but it is getting to me a bit lately. Like I would think I would not feel self concious about it; its nothing personal, its just cause I am a foreigner in a small Japanese town. But seriously, lately it has been getting to me. When girls say stuff like that, I want to respond with "ningyo mitai deshou?" which means "don't I look like a doll"? I mean, I really do want to look like a doll. It would be my dream to be a doll. But here it seems more as an objectification than anything. And thus, it is kind of annoying.
Tonight I got the usual looks, and at first I was really self conscious, but soon I was like, wth, what is the point?! lol Later on I noticed a little boy looking at me ever-so-often. At one point I waved at him and he got all shy and slid down in his seat. When it is kids, I don't mind. I love kids and I love interacting with them, so no harm there. ^ ^ When they got up to leave, it seemed as if his mom was trying to get him to come talk to me. Come to find out, I had met her before, at the sports festival in my town the last week. He was really cute, his name is Shimo and he was 6 years old. They invited me to come to their house someday soon. That would be fun.
Time to go. GAH. Decisions, decisions...
(I also kinda don't want to go to church cause it will just be another thing I have to leave when I leave Japan...)
In the Japan of my dreams it was always raining. I don't know why, the rain just felt cozy and beautiful and mysterious. And that was what Japan was to me. Today I had my rainy Japan. I took a walk today up the road above my house and off of it through some rice fields. I also stopped by a shrine I hadn't yet seen before. Man, it is so pretty here. ^ ^
I'm trying to do my best and be productive even though I feel like doing nothing but sleeping. I am trying to take despair, and find the light in the darkness. But it is hard, and I am being bad. I am hoping to write a little tonight, but I don't know.
I am supposed to go to church tomorrow, but for some reason I am hesitating. I don't want to go by myself for some reason. Usually I am really good with going places by myself! But for some reason my resolve is wavering lately.
Aside: I'm watching TV and for some reason this guy was escorted out onto stage by two black women, while the Moulin Rouge "Lady Marmalade" played. It was weird. Oh, and now the girls are bringing out curry as the guy's omiyage, or, can't remember the word... what you give to people after you go on a trip.
Anyway, one of the reasons I don't want to go is because I am busy the next two Sundays...
Oh, now that dude snapped his fingers and said "funky girl again" and they now have come out with golf clubs for each band member of Arashi. Uh... >.>
So anyway, I am busy the next two Sundays. Next Sunday I am going on a trip with my school. Not sure exactly to where or what I will be doing, because I was too lazy to translate completely. And then the next Sunday, I am going to Miyagi prefecture to help clean people's houses that were affected by the earthquake/tsunami. I mean, it is not as if I will go every Sunday anyway, especially if I have something I have been invited too, but I just feel weird going one Sunday and then not until three weeks later.
Today, before I went out for dinner, I got caught up in a TV show about the tsunami. You know that famous picture of the girl crying by herself? This one?
This picture communicated so much sadness and grief and despair to me, I couldn't forget it. According to the show, the true story behind this picture is that this girl had just been let back in to her town for one hour, and she was desperately searching for her dog, who had been her best friend since she was in high school. After the quake hit she went to the store, and her dog, "Mai", tried to stop her, but she yelled at her, and told her to wait. When the tsunami came, she tried to go get her, but was stopped. So when she finally was able to go back, she couldn't find her, and she though she had died. But the awesome thing is, she finally did find her though! It was kind of like a Hachiko story. The dog waited, not even moving to eat. She would go up to young girls, until one day she found her owner! Such a great story out of all of that misery.
Okay... now I am a little pissed. >.> The story seems to be a bit different than what was on TV. I mean I guess it is the same enough, but the girl had 13 dogs and didn't live alone like they made it seem -_-;; Although you can't trust an online article either.
Today I went for sushi at a place I have been a few times. I wanted to get out. I was really lonely today but I didn't want to be with anyone in particular. It is times like these I wish they had late night cafes around here. I wanted to write a bit too where there was energy. But everything closes so early around here, so it is either go to the store and wander around, or go to kaiten zushi. I picked the latter.
When I was at the sushi place last time with my friend, two girls said in unison (about us) "kawaii!!" which means "cute". Now I like attention, but it is getting to me a bit lately. Like I would think I would not feel self concious about it; its nothing personal, its just cause I am a foreigner in a small Japanese town. But seriously, lately it has been getting to me. When girls say stuff like that, I want to respond with "ningyo mitai deshou?" which means "don't I look like a doll"? I mean, I really do want to look like a doll. It would be my dream to be a doll. But here it seems more as an objectification than anything. And thus, it is kind of annoying.
Tonight I got the usual looks, and at first I was really self conscious, but soon I was like, wth, what is the point?! lol Later on I noticed a little boy looking at me ever-so-often. At one point I waved at him and he got all shy and slid down in his seat. When it is kids, I don't mind. I love kids and I love interacting with them, so no harm there. ^ ^ When they got up to leave, it seemed as if his mom was trying to get him to come talk to me. Come to find out, I had met her before, at the sports festival in my town the last week. He was really cute, his name is Shimo and he was 6 years old. They invited me to come to their house someday soon. That would be fun.
Time to go. GAH. Decisions, decisions...
(I also kinda don't want to go to church cause it will just be another thing I have to leave when I leave Japan...)
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